Some look back and reminisce
What if that what if this
When they chose Christ, the life they miss
I could have been
The main act on scene
The hottest thing on big screen
But I didn’t sign the dotted line they submitted to me
I gave in to Him rather than do season 3
I gave up the money
And I joined a mission team
To a place obscure and unseen
Only for this letter to come to me
“We need money
They stopped treatment for daddy
We can’t pay the fee
And they called to say they want you back on screen
Why aren’t you all you could have been
Come home, can’t you see our need”
And the tears stop me
From being able to see
And I can only fall to my knees
I could have been
But You called me
I gave all to Thee
All of me
And now You’re killing Daddy?!
I could have been….
Switch scene
I could have been
The doctorate
Greatness was my fate
The dream my food and the title my plate
A future as sweet as chocolate
Till with The Saviour I came face to face
And a secret thirst He did satiate
And what was once sweet now had bitter taste
I desired His love independent of my success rate
His eternal love, compassionate
At His Word, me heart did race
Now I collapse behind this pulpit
Like if I had life someone pulled it
Cause on this message is writ
“While you are out being an evangelist
Your son is addicted to spirits
Don’t you care that little bit
You preach love but don’t show it
If you had continued your doctorate
We wouldn’t be in this predicament
When God called you, is this what He meant
Instead of the goals and dreams we had set
To these lowly households almost tents
Are we sentenced
We can barely pay the bills and rents
I am your wife but that could be past tense.
Come home and of this let’s make sense”
And from his knees
Comes the plea
“Lord, I could have been
The best doctor on the scene
The biggest star in the theatre of surgery
In suburbia, sitting comfy
But You called me
And I heard Thee
Your words you gave me
And fire kindled within me
I could have been
The unstoppable dream
But I gave that even willingly
Why do you now take my family
Have I not given enough for Thee…”
Switch scene
Lord, I could have been married
With at least two seed
But You called Me
And I had to say no to those not yoked to Thee
And now all have ceased to pursue me
Lord, why have you let me stay lonely
Have you forgotten me
Should I take care of me
Switch scene
I could have been
The best athlete
But you gave beauty by putting gospel in my feet
I was your minister in the street
But this stray bullet got me
And now I can’t use my feet
Stuck in this wheeled seat
LORD, is this how you meet
My submission complete
Switch sce….STOP
There is much we don’t understand
Is this what He planned?
Was I wrong to follow His command?
I could have been more but now here I stand
I can only tell you of how His hand
In my life has laid a Golden Strand
I have lost much
People in my life death has touched
I actually don’t have much
And in this world, I have no titles and such
My body is so beaten, miracle I don’t use a crutch
And the ladies are not flocking for my touch
I recieve more “no”s and “yes” not as much
This much
I can say in full trust
I could have been
Broken and empty
Lost eternally
Confident externally
But filled with insecurity
Totally set up materially
Running from eternity
Peace would be imaginary
Courage would be a fairy
Love a vulnerability
And violence my artillery
I could have been
Everything I wanted to be
And then He called Me
And I am no longer me
For He lives in me
For in love He
Laid down His life for me
And the cross He keeps in view to see
Just how much He loves me
How can I not trust what He wants for me
Even when the wind stormy
All around me is all I see
The more I lose me the more He gains me
And so the more free I am to be me truthfully
I could have been me
But why chase a dream
When there is reality
Of eternity
And through me, you offer to be seen
So when I think of what I could be
Please, remind me
Not who I think you should be
But who You Are
*and this is not to give a magic bullet answer but in a realistic way let someone know they are not alone and that there is hope. God is faithful and good, that’s why you can hold on just a little longer, don’t give in. The promise is nigh*
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