From your Unborn Child


I don’t believe this letter will get to anyone
At least you left a few songs for me
But I know the letters on this page won’t find their way to you
I don’t know how many hail marys I would have to say to get these pen tracks
Across the pearly gates
And even if the post man came off his usual route to get this missive
I am sure heaven ain’t hard to find
But Lord knows a smile won’t get him in
So even though he made it a point not to trample the rose that
grew out of the pavement
Is it really all about you or
Is the question who do you believe in?

I really wish you could holler if ya hear me
Because it ain’t easy going through all these changes
We are no longer livin’ in the days in need of Panther power
On the oustside we no longer live in a white man’s world
People think we made it and that we livin’ in thugz mansion
When on the inside I feel like we are livin’ in the projects
How can we be livin’ in poverty in a gold mine of this size?
I hope we are not rotten black cotton in God’s eyes

I can hear your voice say keep ya head up
But I feel like I could cry so many tears even though you say baby don’t cry
Lookin’ at all the brothers we lost over the years
The sons and daughters to these dear mamas
Soldiers who had been loyal to the game
Get taken while these phonie homies stick around
And have babies by our own girls
Thought he had my back, all eyes on me, but he had one eye on my girl
And it was all fun and dice until I found that Brenda’s got a baby
Looks like California love got them trapped
He thinks I don’t know, he thinks we still ballin’
I feel this pain ‘coz we once felt like 2 of America’s most wanted
Even though we ain’t American
Now if my homie calls I just let it ring ‘coz I get the urge to hit ’em up
Open up the dark part of my mind and turn these streets into a war zone
Had them pleading when we ride on our enemies but now he is one of them
So he is wanted dead or alive
Put a gun to his head, tell him it’s check out time and ask him
how do you want it?

But then I wake up in the morning and I ask myself
When I scream to God, Can He hear me?
‘Coz, even though mama raised a hell raiser
And people think I am untouchable
I still seek unconditional love
And starin’ through my rear view it can’t be on this earth, it has to be above
I ask myself and I wonder if heavens got a ghetto
For those who heard the ghetto gospel and didn’t step foot in a church
Maybe He would let us in. Oh! What I won’t do for love like that
But I still want Jesus to come back and get these phonies
Love and mercy to meet and make poetic justice
I mean these temptations can not go on until the end of time.

And even though you’re gone
I ain’t mad atcha
‘Coz apparently, life goes on
And some times I listen past you and past the words of the songs
And I can hear the voice of God
Son, I want to take your misery
Replace it with happiness but I need your faith in me.

From one of your many unborn children. The ones whose minds you helped spark.

-photo credit tupac and a child by karlijnlovesart-d3cv2mn


Jezebel, the Jezreelite, & Jesus

And Naboth said to Ahab, The LORD forbid it me, that I should give the inheritance of my fathers to you.

– 1Kings 21:3

Ahab was king of Israel. Everything he wanted in the kingdom he could have. Or at least that is what he thought until he came in contact with the Jezreelite. The Jezreelite’s land stood as an island of hope in the middle of all the corruption and idolatry that was going on. I say island of hope because the Jezreelite still mentioned the name of Jehovah as he faced the king that day.

Have you ever heard it said, that everybody has their price? And when you are the king you can afford just about any price. So imagine the disbelief of Ahab when he talks to the Jezreelite.
He offered to buy his land, but apparently and obviously it was not money that the Jezreelite desired. He kept rejecting all the offers, even the ridiculous sums.
That was quite strange but then Ahab understood. It was not about money. It was about land!
So he offered the Jezreelite some land. Even better land than this land. But the Jezreelite did not want land either.
The LORD forbid it me, that I should give the inheritance of my fathers to you.
The Jezreelite stood firm on this answer.
I guess even a king can not buy virtues such as integrity, loyalty, and duty. The LORD said I should not so I should not.
The king realised that he was not going to get anywhere unless he somehow raised the Jezreelite’s ancestors from the dead and got them to sell the land. But alas, the dead know nothing. The king defeated!? In his own land!? By an army!? Not even. He was defeated by one man.

Now I want you to notice that at this point, Ahab could have let it go. Even he said that he had better land. It was nothing but greed, covetousness, the want for more that made him sulk over this piece of land that he was denied. When God denies us of something we want, do we have similar reactions? Go to bed and turn to the wall, refuse to eat, go sit in a corner and show everyone how mad you are? And you think pride only shows when someone goes around showing off?
Ahab could have let it go but his pride got the best of him and this allowed Jezebel to step in.

Ahab for all his shortfalls, at least had a conscience and would only get the land in a legal manner but Jezebel… She was ready to use any means. But she had no power to do so, unless her husband, king Ahab, gave her that power. And Jezebel used her husbands pride to poke at him.
“You, the king of Israel, are going to be stopped by one man!? You, King Ahab, of Israel!? Or are you even a king? Don’t let this Jezreelite do this to you. Imagine what the people will say. What they will think. Here, just give me the chance and I will restore your dignity and give you what you desire.”
Be careful. The devil has not changed his tactic. He can not make you sin but he can poke at you until you feel that there is no other way. He pushes these beautiful things in our path and says you deserve it, don’t deny yourself….


Back to the story.
So Ahab gives the power to Jezebel to do as she sees fit. And she uses his name and authority to set up a mockery of a trial against the Jezreelite. She even disguises the whole thing as a matter of religious urgency. This man has blasphemed God! It can not be tolerated. He must be killed….. Any Christian should recognise this scenario. The case of the Jezreelite and the case of Jesus.

Sons of Belial sold their integrity and honesty at a cheap price and at the cost of innocent blood. They could find nothing to accuse him of so they accused him falsely and made it all seem as if it was for the good of the entire nation, when at the end of the day it was all to quench the power hunger of Jezebel and the desires of a man and his title of king (Mark 15:10&11) (John 11:49&50).
The trial is not the only place that the parallels are drawn.
The Jezreelite refused to bow down to the king’s demands because he would not sell what rightfully belonged to his father. Jesus refused to bow down to satan when he offered him the majesty of this world at the cost of giving satan the worship that was God’s and God’s alone (Luke 4:5-8). What are we giving away that should be God’s alone?
Both Jesus and The Jezreelite were killed and his enemies got what they wanted. Is this fair? That these two only stood up for what was right and they are killed by their very own people? The wicked do what they want and get what they want…. or at least they thought they got what they wanted.

Do you think after the Jezreelite died Ahab was happy?

Tell me. After Jesus died, do you think satan celebrated? But the celebration is short lived in both cases.
God pronounces judgment on Ahab and his wicked wife right in the same plot of land that they killed for. Ahab was going to lose his precious title, Jezebel’s power would come to nothing actually, here is what God said in judgment through Elijah the Prophet.
Thus said the LORD, Have you killed, and also taken possession?… Thus said the LORD, In the place where dogs licked the blood of Naboth shall dogs lick your blood, even yours…. I have found you: because you have sold yourself to work evil in the sight of the LORD. Behold, I will bring evil on you, and will take away your posterity, and will cut off from Ahab him that urinates against the wall, and him that is shut up and left in Israel, And will make your house like the house of Jeroboam the son of Nebat, and like the house of Baasha the son of Ahijah, for the provocation with which you have provoked me to anger, and made Israel to sin. And of Jezebel also spoke the LORD, saying, The dogs shall eat Jezebel by the wall of Jezreel. Him that dies of Ahab in the city the dogs shall eat; and him that dies in the field shall the fowls of the air eat.
Actually Jezebel’s death at the hands of Jehu was quite gruesome. The land that they wanted so bad? They died and they left it. We don’t even know who it went to.
After all that conniving and killing, Ahab can not take that field to the grave. Jezebel can not take a bit of the power she had as queen. When you die, it ends and there are eternal consequences for temporal desires.

The Chief Priests thought they had won but then they remembered that Jesus said He would rise on the third day. And there was no way to stop it. They put a Roman guard, the devil probably had all his fallen angels guarding that tomb as well but when God calls His Son, Jesus takes up His life and walks out of the grave. Because the temporal ruler of this Earth could find nothing in Him to keep Him dead.

Even though the Jezreelite is dead now. Wrongfully accused, stoned, shamed and ridiculed. I believe Jesus’ resurrection was a guarantee to all those who stand for right in the face of death. They will rise from their graves and inherit an eternal reward, that is to know God for eternity. To grow to know and praise the God who loves them and have Him say well done for infinite ages until they even forget that they were once persecuted for only doing the right thing. They may even say it was all cheap enough.

There is a Pattern

God says that He does not do anything without letting his servants, the prophets know about it beforehand (Amos 3:7).

Sometimes the people misunderstand God when He speaks, like when the Israelite nation did not know that Jesus was the Messiah. There was the time prophecy in Daniel Chapter 9 to tell them that they should expect Jesus at that time (even the devil got some counterfeits ready at round about that time Acts 5:36-37).

Sometimes the people just don’t want to hear, like when Jeremiah tried to tell the people to get ready to fall into the hands of the Babylonians (Jeremiah 27) (see also Jeremiah 25:4 & 35:15).
God, as far as I know, always tries to let the people know through His word, through His prophets. And then it is the privilege of the prophet to let the people know what God is saying.

Is this true? Does God let us know before He does things? And why does He do this?

Let us check through the Bible, shall we?
In the garden of Eden, it was okay to eat of any tree, any tree, except one. Because if they ate from that tree, they would die. This was told to them, not that they would fear the tree but that they would trust God enough to stay away from the tree. Needless to say, they did not listen.

Cain offered fruits for his sacrifice. God then told Him to do right and He would be accepted. He did not listen.

Noah… I will get back to Noah.

It was all good for Abram (later called Abraham) to be amongst his father’s people until God told Him to come out. Then He had to walk out in faith.

When God was delivering Israel from Egypt through Moses, you did not have to put blood on your door every night before you slept, did you? But there came a certain time when this became a must if you wanted death to passover your house.

Or even these days, you do not see the sacrifices of goats, and sheep, and doves being offered in church because Christ was the fulfillment of those sacrificial services. They sacrificed, in faith, looking forward to the sacrifice that God would provide. We do not sacrifice goats and sheep, in faith, looking to the sacrifice God provided, that is Jesus Christ.(Hebrews 10:1-4&12-22).

The point is at certain critical times God warns and then moves and if we do not move with Him we are in danger. We are approaching the end of Earth’s history in the visible return of Jesus Christ, we would do well to be attentive and go or stay where God tells us to. I believe this is one of those critical times. Yes, in our individual lives but right now I am going to dive into the bigger picture.

In Noah’s time people were going about doing their own thing. Eating, drinking, getting married, mourning their loved ones, making plans for tomorrow…. Basically it was like every other time. Except for one thing. There was this crazy guy called Noah building this ark of wood. It was big and he was pouring quite a lot of his resources into this big wooden craft. It was not the building of this ark that made him crazy. It was the reason for building the ark that made him crazy.
Apparently God told him that there was going to be a flood. That the waters that had always nourished the earth would somehow fall from the sky, overflow the Earth to destroy everything, yes everything. Well, everything except what was on that ark.
Think about that! It had never rained before. The earth was watered by the mist and the water that God made come up out of the ground (Genesis 2:5,6). As in people can walk wherever they want to without worry of a drought. there was plenty for everyone, everywhere and now Noah was saying get into an ark. An ark that had no open fields, limited food supplies, no fun facilities, no freedom (as they saw it) and no reason besides Noah saying God said to get in it.

And what is this!? Animals. Animals getting on board the ark. Not that they were being forced in. They were getting on board of their own accord…. and yet with such order. Two by two, male and female of the animals God called unclean and sevens of the clean animals. Birds, cattle, creeping things…. If even the animals…. Maybe we should…

Nah! I mean who wants to get on board the ark now? All those animals in their? Imagine the mess!
(You know, even a miracle can be seen as a reason to stay away if you choose to not listen to God.) Then the door closed, with just eight people on board.

Now tell me. Was it okay to go all over the earth before the time of the flood? (Besides where God had blocked off Eden, of course)
Most certainly. But what about when Noah started to preach for people to be saved in the ark? Do you think it was then okay to wonder away from the ark or to get into it?
With all the animals? Maybe when it rains a little? In that little space? With that crazy guy!?
Because God said move, so move.

When Lot was in Sodom and Gomorrah, God said get out. So he had a choice to get out.
When Jesus was here, He said come to Me. So we have a choice to come.
Now Jesus says Babylon is fallen, come out of her, My people! He calls His people to get ready for His soon return. Many sheep that are of His flock are in other places but He calls them to be one flock under the Good Shepherd….. But where is the ark of this time, when the world is going to end?

I can only say what God says will save those who make it in the end.
These are the ones that come out of the great tribulation and wash their robes and make them white in the blood of the lamb. Here is the remnant of the seed which survived the wrath of the dragon, which keep the commandments of God and keep the testimony of Jesus Christ. Where you find these two, you will find the ark. And He calls to us now. He does not leave us without warning.
Will the excuses of Noah’s day be our excuses?